April 9, 2009

Well, Hello Baby!

This is my favorite of all the ultrasound pictures we had done yesterday. It's a profile picture with his arm and thumb showing.
I'd been anxiously awaiting this ultrasound appointment for what seems like forever. Because my pregnancy has been textbook so far, there was no need to do an early ultrasound, and 16 weeks seems like a long time to wait to see your baby. The minute the tech started moving that wand around and the image became clearer, I was in awe. I know I've said over and over that I don't feel pregnant or I don't believe I'm pregnant...and you'd think after getting to gaze at the various parts of the baby for over 20 minutes, I'd be convinced. But...well, I guess it just seems all too crazy, miraculous to be real. I was laying there, with goo all over my stomach, and startingly clear images of a baby being beamed onto a computer screen and flatscreen TV mounted over my head, and it just all felt so...so...I don't know. Weird? Normal? Surreal?
Even now, I don't quite have the words to describe it. I don't think it's really hit home yet, even after all this time. I'm not emotionally connected to this baby yet, and while that bothers me a little, I also figure it's pretty normal. I'm still way excited about having a baby, but I guess I just haven't connected that emotion to what's happening to and in my body right now. Yesterday was kind of like being shown a video of what a typical ultrasound looks like...not like they were showing me the actual baby that is growing inside me. I don't know when that concept will kick in, but my guess is that it'll be incredibly cool when it does.
We actually get to go back in two weeks because the baby wasn't totally cooperating and they didn't get all the pictures they wanted. The ones they got looked good and normal, though. We wanted to find out if we were having a boy or a girl, but with it's legs crossed and upside down, it was hard to get a good peek. The tech was pretty certain it is a boy, but we'll try to get it confirmed in a couple of weeks.
So, for now...the biggest question is....Boy Names?? (So much harder than girl names, I'm finding)

1 comment:

  1. I was never emotionally attached to either kid while pregnant. We've talked before about how alien that whole experience felt to me and why I won't be doing it again.
    It'll come in its own time for you.

    I can't help you with the baby names. But you can do like we did - you decide first name and run a "contest" and let your church pick out middle name. That was fun.