March 11, 2005

2 Month Mark

2 months to the day.

It's with mixed emotions that I hit this benchmark. I've been back here for 2 months since my Christmas trip, and I'm now half way through the 4 months I was facing the day I got on that plane in Nashville. The last two months have flown by, but this past week has dragged on unmercifully. I can't believe it's only Friday night.
I miss Sascha. He helped make the time go by so much faster, and now the next 2 months seem to loom before me without the hope of a social life. But, he's been gone a week now, and even though he doesn't seem terribly happy to be back in Germany, the fact remains that he is staying there and not coming back to rescue me from boredom.

2 months.
There are so many things I still want to do. So many places I haven't been yet. I have been here for 6 months and I have barely left the city. I know it's my job to be here and to be working, and not acting the tourist. But these are the last 2 months I have in Guatemala, possibly for the rest of my life, and I at least want to see some of it. Besides, I am so OVER this city. I could use a break from it for a couple of days.

Wow. 2 whole months left.
I know that the day I get on the plane to leave here, my heart is going to be excited and sad, all at the same time. Life is going to start moving at such a rapid pace very soon and I'm just not sure I'm going to be up to processing it all fast enough. I don't want to miss out on learning all the lessons I have to learn here; I don't want to waste what has been an amazing, albeit hard, experience for me. I'm trying really hard to keep my head here and focused on the task it hand. It's hard to do that, especially when my calender for the days I'll have in transition at home are already getting too full. I'm not going to have time to decompress until I hit Wisconsin.

But, it's going to be okay. I'll figure this stuff out as I go, and I'm going to try to absorb as much of this adventure as I possibly can in the 2 months I have left. I know I'll regret it if I don't, and I don't want to live with that. So, here's to you, the 2 months I have left. May they be amazing.

1 comment:

  1. Tori,
    I want to commend your attitude. It's hard to stay focused on the task at hand when there is something else on the horizon that you are excited about. Just hang in there girl!

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