I never write in here anymore. i know and I'm sorry. It just feels like I got so behind that I'll never be able to catch up again. No one really reads this anymore, and that's kinda the way I like it. I used to have an unpublished journal, but I've even stopped writing in there. I think I need to make more of an effort to write, because I think I do better if I write down these things, if I try to sort through them. My brain works better if i try to corral my thoughts into paragraphs and stories. I'll try.